this week i

published on inpatient hospital cost sharing among the elderly.  curtis borked a roast.  train to busan, "kid, if you don't study, you'll end up like him"

live through the first pandemic that humans might win.  look through old photos and realize right now right now it is my turn to be alive
 

laid down two picnic blankets in the backyard, divvied up the spicy momos, and chatted.  never before in my life stood six feet from someone, outdoors and alone together, spoke "i would like to fuck you," heard the same from her, believed it, waved goodbye

understand there are teams of google employees and amazon employees in corporate offices, and they've both heard the recordings that our phones make automatically while listening for "aloha, cortana!" or whatever you're supposed to say.   instead of hearing the initiation phrase, our devices just pick up our heavy breathing.  there are corporate computer programmers who have heard us before during after.  and they're bored of it

found an elusive foxquirrel

recorded scenes from quarantine

tracked proxy economic measures



4/2

this week i

published on extended prescription fills.

don't think coronavirus will do it, but understand society absolutely can collapse.  we in the west are not guaranteed good government

attribute atheism to communicable diseases, infection medicine, that viruses move across species, we are animals, self-aware enough to know it

note jhu placed unassigned geographies on the bight of benin, zero north south zero east west.  spreads via sneeze and doorknob

question: does "gonna" appear in the OED?  search result: "gonna" is an eye dialect. OED has a paywall, mw does not

saw full bloom before lockdown.  can america drink outside yet?


3/26

this week i

rank junko partner my favorite drug addict rotating between homelessness and jail song.  wiping with water everyone else's chief concern.  as the professor longhair big chief rumba mambo calypso call and response goes, find a levee burn it down, find a levee burn it down

filled out the census, five minutes.  marcie and david cooked mac and cheese, guessed after about ten of twenty questions.  new house already home

ate kenyan crab samosa before driving lessons before this before pakistani counter service

guess it makes sense the world's richest man would be best positioned to weather this storm.  shipment service delivers anything without human contact, newspaper designed to attract constant attention and broadcast life or death information, shuttle company to leave the planet

compiled some french

etre: to be
je suis
tu es
il/elle est
nous sommes
vous etes
ils/elles sont

parl"er"
fin"ir"
vend"re"

je parle
tu parles
il/elle parle
nous parlons
vous parlez
ils/elles parlent

aimer
j'aime
tu aimes
il/elle aime
nous aimons
vous aimez
ils/elles aiment

manger
je mange
tu manges
il/elle mange
nous mangeons
vous mangez
ils/elles mangent

mango = mangue

commencer
je commence
tu commences
il/elle commence
nous commencons
vous commencez
ils/elles commencent

caca = kaakaa
çaça = saasaa

les articles indefinis
un, une, des

les articles definis
le, la, les, l'

l' precedes singular vowels and h

l'helicoptere

hot dog in canada: chien chaud

girlfriend in canada: ma blonde, not petite amie

boyfriend in canada: mon chum, not petit ami

words borrowed from english are masculine

plural doesn't always add an "s"
 
chapeaux
bureaux
tableaux

mon portable

un gomme = eraser


3/19

this week i

updated our health coverage estimates by race and ethnicity

met rupak at little serow before nih training

missed zero february days

visited deale for seafood, vintage trail, jug bay sanctuary.  we have a game.  her: anyway.  me: anyhow.  her: anywho.  me: anywhere.  her: anywhat.  me: anywhy.  her: anywhen.  me: dammit, you win.  she asked if i knew what an emoji was, i texted back, "any(owl)"

see it now: the vhs cover image of home alone is an edvard munch original.  if you want someone to listen to, make it professor longhair

read english as she is spoke by jose de fonseca & pedro carolino.  mark twain's favorite


idiotisms and proverbs

these apricots and these peaches make me and to come water in my mouth

we shall have a fine weather to day.
there is some foggy.
i fear of the thunderbolt.
the sun rise on.
the sun lie down.
it is light moon's.

with a hair dresser:
your razors, are them well?
yes, sir.
comb-me quickly; don't put me so much pomatum.  what news tell me?
all hairs dresser are newsmonger.
sir, i have no heared any thing.
 
a blind did hid five hundred crowns in a corner of their garden; but a neighbour, which was perceive it, did dig up and took its.  the blind not finding more her money, was suspect that might be robed, but one work for take again it?  he was going find the neighbour, and told him that he came to get him a council; that he was a thousand crowns which the half was hided into a sure part and i don't know if i want, if to put the remains to the same part.  the neighbour was council him so and was hasten to carry back the sum, in the hope soon to draw out a thousand.  but the blind having finded the money, was seized it, having called her neighbour, he told him: "gossip, the blind saw clearer than this that may have two eyes"


3/12

this week i

visited the aquatic gardens during a windy winter.  bridges to nowhere

ate newton street last supper

fail.ed

clapped cecilia accompanying chapati chef

consider the power of love by huey lewis and the news to be an exceptional song held back by its sterile genre

wonder what the social life is like for foreign actors working in j.a.v.  the loneliest expat circle of them all

suppose i'm still amazed this garbage is the president.  this is not normal.  pence voted for carter.  good material though

harriet tubman doing wakanda forever on a visa card

not on my month, bro

who were ya'll praying to?  the ghost of blackface past?

black people can't get the coronavirus

charred the damn steak.  upstairs to apologize for the fire alarm going off, he was snoring.  next evening found a mound of pistachio shells


read..

(1) funding the apocalypse

humans have released more carbon dioxide since hansen's congressional testimony than in all of history before

a million syrian refugees to europe (driven in part by the deep drought that helped spark the civil war) and a million central american refugees to our southern border (driven in part by relentless drought in honduras and guatemala) have unhinged the politics of both continents



(2) the oppressive city

why cities only emerged some five millennia after the first crops and herds were domesticated


many crops - such as grains, potatoes, taro, and breadfruit - can support high human population densities.  but it was only in the grain-based societies that the world's first cities arose..grain is the perfect crop for taxation.  it is storable, allowing for the accumulation of wealth; it matures simultaneously and predictably and is impossible to hide before harvest, making the tax collector's job easy; and because grain is divisible, rulers can maximize their take, leaving the grower with only enough for bare subsistence.  compare that with a crop, like potatoes, that grows underground.  a portion of any root crop can easy escape the tax collector's notice, providing the grower with a measure of independence.  for a ruler, that can be dangerous: a well-fed and economically independent people are less likely to be induced to labor on monumental buildings, or indeed to accept any impositions from above

mesopotamian scribes used identical marks for laborers as they do for "state-controlled herds of domestic animals"


3/5

this week i

captured tilki's american cousin.  a fierce lion lives in each of us

discovered a new cafe, only open four hours per week.  district pier mardi gras then veils the musical included yemaya from havana from yoruba.

listened to the 2017 chemistry nobel laureate discuss advances in the microscope, the resolution revolution of 2012

read on one of the message boards: "when a measure becomes a target it ceases to be a good measure"  here's a flame in free fall on the iss

introduce jennifer aziz, a lawyer from toronto ontario canada

2/27

this week i

think it less of a shame we haven't walked on the moon since the 70s than we haven't survived past 120 years since the 90s.

woke to a four o'clock knock.  "could you drive me to founder's day?"  variations of "dad, it's february" for an hour but he showered, sat still while i shaved off santa beard.  i drank two coffees, blue teas, read about poisoned american-iranian relations, updated weight calibration code i'd written in austria between cherry cigarettes, merge problem for firms less than three employees.  bobcat digging up neighbors driveway, why wait till eight.

woke a second day, this time to a sunday morning yell.  involve others as much as possible.

me: hey aunt ro, your brother woke me up at four a.m. hollering to try and find your mother.  he's still a little disoriented about it.  could you just take a couple of minutes and talk to him about it?  everything's fine
her: sure!
i hand my father the phone, assume she says, "mommy's been dead for twenty-five years"
him: that's what anthony tells me.

attended thursday french.  these people have a permanent seat on the security council.

le livre
la table
les livres
les tables

plural masculine and feminine are both "les"

l'acteur

un livre
une table
des tables

le chanteur
la chanteuse





drove up to rawlings.





find quality assurance among computer programmers atrocious.  we don't seem to care, it shows.


read..


(1) economists better off in the physics department

is money best conceived of as a physical commodity, a precious substance used to facilitate exchange, or is it better to see money primarily as a credit, a bookkeeping method or circulating iou-in any case, a social arrangement?  this is an argument that has been going on in some form for thousands of years..in the middle ages everyday transactions across eurasia were typically conducted by means of credit, and money was assumed to be an abstraction.  it was the rise of global european empires in the sixteenth and seventeenth centuries, and the corresponding flood of gold and silver looted from the americas, that really shifted perceptions

what actually maters is spending

the premise that markets will always right themselves in the end can only be tested if one has a commonly agreed definition of what the "end" is; but for economists, that definition turns out to be "however long it takes to reach a point where i can say the economy has returned to equilibrium."  (in the same way, statements like "the barbarians always win in the end" or "truth always prevails" cannot be proved wrong, since in practice they just mean "whenever barbarians win, or truth prevails, i shall declare the story over.")

the existing discipline is designed to solve another century's problems.  the problems of how to determine the optimal distribution of work and resources to create high levels of economic growth is simply not the same problem we are now facing: i.e., how to deal with increasing technological productivity, decreasing real demand for labor, and the effective management of care work, without also destroying the earth



(2) one quarter of the land

americans have at times demanded that our prosperity protect the public good

"brazil is like a virgin that every pervert from the outside lusts for"

(3) the european fossil record

no individual fossil creature is exemplary of the first or the last of its kind; in paleontology, we are always walking into the cinema halfway through the film, and leaving before the end

neanderthals were 'obligate carnivores', who fed almost exclusively on meat, hunting deer, boar, mammoths and aurochs.  their hair was red, their skin was pale, their eyes were blue; they were adapted to the cold and low light of the ice age north, and they lived a dangerous life hunting huge mammals.  our closest relative, and the last other human species we shared the planet with, they are 'a profound enigma', flannery writes.  'after they became extinct somewhere in western europe about 39,000 years ago, we were left alone.'  what happened to them?



(4) empress as an author

'things that lose by being painted' ('pinks, cherry blossoms, yellow roses.  men or women who are praised in the romances as beautiful') and 'things that gain by being painted' ('pines.  autumn fields.  mountain villages and paths.  cranes and deer')

(5) the mind at war

privately, patton remained defiant, insisting that a bunch of muddle-headed pacifists had concocted a phony illness to undermine military discipline.  "there's no such thing as shell shock," he declared.  "it's an invention of the jews"

armchair hawks


(6) more than a low-responsibility childhood pet

it was, perhaps, a hermit crab that ate amelia earhart

the oldest live to more than a hundred, and grow to be wider than three feet across: too large to fit in a bathtub, exactly the right size for a nightmare

hermit crabs are not, in fact, hermitical: they're sociable, often climbing on top of one another to sleep in great piles, and their group behavior is so intricately ordered that they make the politics of renaissance courts look simplistic.  when a crab comes across a new shell, it will comb into it and try it on for size.  if the shell is of good quality but too big, it waits nearby for another crab to come and inspect it.  if that crab also finds it too large, it joins the first crab, holding onto its claw until a queue develops - it can stretch to twenty crabs, arranged in order of size from smallest to largest, each holding onto the next: a hermit crab chorus line.  when at last a crab arrives who can fit the vacant shell, the first crab in line claims the new crab's former shell, and there is a flurry of crabs climbing into their neighbour's home.  the crab's abdomen is soft and vulnerable to attack while exposed, so the whole process takes place with astonishing rapidity



(7) the exchequered history of the economist

pretend you are god

if you want to know what's happening in the world, read the new york times.  if you want to know what's wrong with what's happening in the world, read the guardian.  if you want to know what's going to happen next in the world (unless the tinpot leftists wreck everything), read the economist

auditing the paper's history in terms of the views it has expressed on the headline political issues of the day makes for a readable indictment, but it undersells what has been most distinctive as well as what has, quite possibly, been of most value to the majority of its readers over the years..its in-depth articles about the prospects for various sectors of the global economy, or about trends that will remake the markets of the future, or about the shifting demographics that will doom a product, an industry or a government in one country but not another


(8) american imperial tradition

he was loathed throughout the sunni world, large parts of which celebrated the assassination.  a lebanese political scientist wrote on twitter that trump had accumulated so much political capital from killing soleimani that he should run for office in an arab country

as neoconservatives used to say at the start of america's invasion of iraq, 'boys go to baghdad: real men go to tehran'



(9) generational advantage

comparing cohorts born just 12 years apart - in 1958 and 1970 - the study found a sharp increase in the association between parents' and children's income

those who embark on 'risky' careers with access to family resources are rarely facing anything like the same probabilities of genuinely bad outcomes as those without

the capacity to bullshit or schmooze



2/20

this week i

commence le francais.

comment vous vous appelez?

et toi?
et vous?

comment ca va?
comment tu va?
comment vous allez?
comment allez-vous?

comme ci, comme ca

ca va mal!

dunked each slice in chili honey.  marcie let me put too many jalapenos on my pizza pre-oven.  anchovies are pointless, ya'll

consider candice bergen stage-whispering that wallace shawn a hobbit the best scene of sex and the city.

found algorithm overreach in last week's post after recording fifteen seconds of the television in the living room.  google matched it to superbowl, blocked from streaming in the window due to copyright claims.  is this what shoshana zuboff warns us about?

watched blade runner, set in 2019 los angeles.  artificial humans, flying cars, aaaaand a telephone booth.  capillary dilation of the blush response

held the most recent spot for a moment.

passed saturday morning at the northern virginia plant symposium

about 45% of insect species have died since the 1970s.  in the 60s and 70s, you couldn't fill up your car with gas without cleaning your windshield

the ovenbird's nest looks like a leafy pizza oven

no mulch volcanoes


2/13

this week i

hiked annapolis rock, won darts





listened to jo thompson speak about professional, bespoke landscaping  "this is the afterwards, by the way"

watched barton fink.  john goodman always a bright presence, but i didn't connect with the nuances.  might need to view in sophisticated company

am amazed the grateful dead received airtime at the superbowl.  track one

sent sanders another $230.

2/6

this week i

updated our women's health insurance fact sheet.

attended the first linux lecture.  kernel like air traffic control.

will stick with base r for lifer studio exceptional but not for me.

visited the first manga artist, chinese old jade stones



listened to ellen stofan advocate for venus over mars.


when you have one thing to study, that one data point leads you down many wrong paths

kepler has made us realize that nearly every star in the night sky has a planetary system

was there a time that mars and venus were habitable?  for mars, definitely yes and for venus, maybe yes.

the 460° C surface temperature on venus is largely due to a runaway greenhouse atmosphere.  given its distance from the sun, it should only be about 10° hotter than earth

how many chances did life have in our solar system?


wrote up whiskey down.  each phrase refuses to resolve

i'll take another shot of that
whiskey down and i'll drag
my ass around this
boring town and somewhere
between
the reds and greens of the street lights
i'll find you

now i probably won't hey but

maybe i will and all the tears
i cry over the milk
i spill form a beautiful stream
that flows wild and free
from the fountains of the brokenhearted

you're still movin' on and i'm still

goin' strong but it
won't be long till i'm
crackin' up in my
heart i know i can
bear the load
but still it makes it hard
when you didn't fall as far

i can tell that you're

doin' swell while my
private hell oh it
burns me up and that
lovin' you got me

high it's true
but i'm headed for the ground

i'll take the whiskey down

i'll take just one more shot of that

whiskey down and i'll pick another jewel off my fool's gold crown cause i'm the rue,
the rub,
the fools in love in the kingdom of the brokenhearted

now i said i wouldn't call hey but

maybe i will and watch the
water fall over the dam
i built and when the levies all break
every mistake
will rush me back to where i started

1/30

this week i

believe best days ahead.

think the props are silly, light bdsm makes more sense.

swiped left on fruit ninja for adults, closed the app, regretted.  the moment i saw that last one, in my head, i said this: "hey, you are not my type.  i think you will be a beautiful woman into your eighties and nineties.  i can just tell that you will light up every room for many years, i can just tell.  you are not my type, but i can see your lifelong beauty clear as day.  goodbye until the singularity."

wrote on my place in the universe.

i fight for the people inhabiting the future.  to you inhabiting the future, who will know so much of what my contemporaries did not yet know but who still know so little of what there is to know, to you i ask you see my consciousness as a voice worth resuscitating.  perhaps i propagate myself not in dna cells, not by genetic heritage, just with this nock of an arrow in the corner of recorded history.  i fight each day, to be excellent in what i achieve, with what i have available to me, from where i came.  i strive, and may your lives be richer than mine.  i accept this communion with all that is.  i ask you bring me with you.

think about it, seriously though: if we transcribe your brain to a disk - truly copying every detail - will you actually have died?

busted our damn selves.

coaxed him into the anacostia.

noticed they refunded her the points after the commercial break.
1/23

this week i

updated our estimate of the medicaid coverage gap.

found a new old tune.

read..

(1) fauna of europe

the entelodonts, or "hell pigs," ...would run down entire herds of their prey in an orgy of carnivory, slashing and saving the extra meat for later

european civilization..was built on the back of a heifer..europe was named after europa, the "cow-faced" one, who mated with zeus in his guise as a white bull


(2) solving everything for whom

'type a' brute force programs would investigate every possible line as thoroughly as they could, given the limits of time and computing power, and evaluate each move in order to select the best at any point.  'type b' programs would play more like humans, concentrating on the most plausible lines and dedicating their resources to those..for artificial intelligence, this was disastrous.  researchers abandoned type b approaches altogether

by the time ibm's deep blue beat kasparov in the famous 1997 match, joe hoane, the principal software engineer on the team, said: 'it is not an artificial intelligence project in any way...we play chess through sheer speed of calculation and we just shift through the possibilities and we just pick one line

computers programmed to play weakly tend to alternative between world-champion-level moves and ridiculous blunders, as if finding themselves utterly at a loss as to how to let you win


(3) the repetition wears you down

"these sneaking and cowardly sicilians, the descendents of bandits and assassins, who have transported to this country the lawless passions, the cut-throat practices, and the oath-bound societies of their native country, are to us a pest without mitigation," the new york times editorialized.  "lynch law was the only course open to the people of new orleans."


(4) osteomylitis

if you're going to lose a finger, it's the best one to lose!  did you know that half your grip strength is in the little finger?  that's why the japanese used to cut off the little fingers of their enemies


(5) public health mistakes

ebola's reproductive value (r0) is 2 - on average one person infects two others (for comparison, the r0 for measles is 12-18, for sars and hiv, 4).  most transmission occurs during the provision of care

the body bags for ebola fatalities were black, making them seem no different from garbage bags


(6) african refugees

abdel fattah el-sisi hardly needed to audition for the role of europe's latest highly paid bouncer

between now and the end of the century, three out of every four babies in the world will be born in sub-saharan africa

some 'youngsters' in tambacounda in senegal: 'barsa walla barsac,' they say - wolof for 'barcelona or death.'

while european liberals try to parse the difference between asylum worthies, economic migrants and climate refugees, and all the while enrich and compound the authoritarian regimes that produce them, the better approach is probably to embrace a different paradox: reduce the incentive for africans to want to come to europe, while simultaneously making their journey easier and safer


(7) the limits of the bering ecosystem

bowhead jaws served as rafters in houses

neither system conceived of a moment at which economic growth was no longer possible or desirable


(8) peace elephants

evolution has selected for similar capacities of intelligence, compassion, and sociality in both humans and elephants

during world war ii..several dozen elephants and mahouts were killed, and as the surviving mahouts regrouped to discuss what to do, the elephants that had lost their mahouts picked them up and carried them sixty miles back to chowkham, where they delivered the bodies to the men's families

in vietnam..us air command had a policy of deliberately targeting elephants


1/16

this week i

drove to urrao to caicedo.  how many latin american geography students in the seventies saw rhodesia, thought knees?















entered the year of the optometrist.  when will driving be like cursive?  i donated $270 to bernie before the deadline, count among the five million



saw dubbed jumanji, modern art, one more day at the cafe.








1/9